Merry Christmas everyone. And we would like to wish the best new year ever. One year ago, the four of us were in Ecuador having the time of our lives. We were able to visit Indira’s father in Tena. And we saw much of Ecuador from the oceans, the mountains, the jungle and the many rivers of Ecuador. To me, last December will remain a high point of my life because it was the time when seemingly, we had not a care in the world. I will always remember waking the beach with Maya and Taylor exploring the wonders that were presented before us. We found strange creatures and marveled at their strangeness. We often chased little crabs on the beach, sometimes even catching them for closer inspection. We would catch snakes in the jungle, and Maya was the first in line to take a closer look. And we tried “chuntacuro”, which are the rhino beetle larvae. I will always remember Maya falling for Ross, a herpetologist who happened to be Tia Jen’s friend. Had Ross been any less charming, I would have found a shotgun somehow.
And as 2009 closed and 2010 was ushered in, I was absolutely convinced that 2010 was going to be one of the best years ever. And in some sense, it has been one of the best ever. We’ve learnt that kindness is alive in our community, friends, family and even strangers. I’ve struggled with accepting so much help this year. I guess this is a good struggle. Our neighbors, friends and coworkers have been amazing, from fund raising to providing us with food. Little thoughtful gestures, such as receiving fresh coffee or lasagna were humbling to say the least. Algorithmics, my employer has also been very generous and gracious towards the both of us. And TZC members provided me and my family with the support which at times were desperately needed. I’ve seen the resilience and the gentle strength in my little girl as well as my wife Indira, that humbled me at times. And Maya and my relationship remains interesting as ever. Once in a while, Maya will simply smile at me with her entire being, which fills me with joy. And I am grateful that we are able to see these beauties that are part of being human.
And paradoxically, it also has been one of the most challenging year as well. We have shed more tears this year than any other I can remember. We have had more moments of terror and desperations as well. I look back with a sense of amazement, the events that have taken place. How did we get through that? Difficulties that we’ve endured seem surreal. And closely following other families in similar situation with neuroblastoma have been both rewarding as well as terrifying. And for few, the terror was realized.
As we look toward 2011, we move cautiously forward. Unlike the last year, I have no sense of what the new year will bring. We are certain that the new year will have its’ own set of dramas, some terrifying and others very rewarding. All we can do is hang on and enjoy each day as much as possible. It’s the only thing we can do. And really, it’s the only thing we can ever do.
And Maya… our little princess. She has never been more healthier this year than she is now. After all, she has come through the high dose chemo, just two months ago. The past few days have been exceptionally delightful for our little girl. She really enjoyed Christmas this year. And she seemed to have cleaned up on presents. Last year, I might have said something about spoiling Maya. I can’t seem to find that voice this year. So, we’ve had a nice and quiet Christmas this year and that was just what we needed.
We would like to thank everyone who have thought about our family. Your help has meant so much to us this year I can hardly articulate our position.
Thank you everyone.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
The Kim Family.